As in, is there a difference between people who want to kill themselves and people who want to die? Not that I would categorize myself either way, especially these days. I do sometimes wonder whether I could ever be truly suicidal given how fundamentally lazy I am. If I'm feeling low, it only ever extends to wanting to slowly dissolve into air as I walk along.

In other news, I really enjoyed tonight because I felt more or less (but really, more) interested in the people around me and thereby interested in myself! So much of life is environment. Possession is 9/10ths of the law. And, sitting here at whatever godawful time it is in the morning...that feels like enough for now.