babysitting and friendship. panic attack in the train. i'll virgin-suicide it for a dollar. if i die, just wrap up my body like they do at 1920 commons and tell my parents i wasn't even sure how to begin to try anymore. but that it was all for them. and i knew it was all for me. wait, no. anyway. :^) sad caesura once again. my favorite new method of punishment is pushing my watch progressively further ahead from the actual time. it's my faaaaaaave. my eyes are open, my trachea is chafed.