seemingly, now, it's always this time at night, with just vignettes of warmth and daylight to mark it off. today i saw the video for rem's song "imitation of life" and it's like an archetypal rem song so good and to stand up for. i think that yes, a haircut is due. not just any haircut. a rebirth haircut. a phoenix haircut :^) to remind me of what i need to remember about myself and why i don't have any hair. also b/c it's gotten really warm out and beautiful and i want to look like the next oilily catalog superstar. the things that i worry about are like those cake windows. spinning and spinning, luminous and whipped icings and something new to fixate on from just afar. something you know you'll take a big bite out of, soon. at the same time you know how to bake, and wonder whether something better could be arranged. which reminds me, pcms bake sale tomorrow!