it's like so rare that i talk on the phone to anyone for more than two minutes. probably my difficulty with talking on the phone with certain people is well-documented but it's still hard to see the words kind of floating in space and then having to muster them into proper sentences with inflections and a linear model of rationality with grammatical bounds and yeah whatever, i just have a hard time talking on the phone at night kind of thing. :^) but it's like good to hear a voice especially a voice like lisa's, one which is engagingly critical and will rent the gaps in my logic to the highest bidder. aggh sentence mustering. but hmm...cibo matto in new york this saturday? not to mention, poughkeepsie on thursday? and poughkeepsie on saturday afterwards? and seoul? have to remember to make that fax...make sure that this experience is a free ride [through helllll]. but anyway i have this french paper due as always. quick - so the gap and the pendulum. question of trust which i think i lack to a sorry heartbreaking degree. just spreading the pain thin throughout your reseau...there are such such better options but i think i gave up. once knowing that, though; once having written that, i move up and on.