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just woke up from a hearty, korean food induced nap, and am ACTUALLY not tired. refreshed. optimistic about the fierce world we live in. did my history reading. saw bits of high fidelity. sort of. oh this cyclic and mismatching life!
speaking of which - this may make you suddenly wake up and say "hold on, why isn't my life like that anymore?! doh". sigh, whatever. probably not because that would be ridiculous. i think every statement i make here is like at least 40% bullshite yo. incidentally i'm convinced i've lost my control of the english language or just english, or that i am having too much trouble speaking, and for that reason i have picked up that diihrty habit of reading again. go figure. this afternoon i polished off (i could've used another verb, yes) "an invisible sign of my own" in record time. (i have no clue whether that link will work.) it made me kind of nervous to be reading again. and yeah, contemporary literature always makes me rush a little bit. the pace. otherwise dinner yes. mmm mm good. conversation with manoj about this school and this program. no exit indeed. very nervous these days about people who ask me for college advice because i am so obviously not one who made good choices. or one who could be happy with any choice. potato farming and fruit picking, personal shopping, haircutting, waitressing, what am i missing here? opportunity cost of course is what everyone here believes in. friedrich list would say we are ourselves investments. but we are also the return. when the transformation occurs will we be there to see it kind of thing. at the very least i'm thinking unsleepily right now. it all just comes back to me in the end.
doop doop doop
just woke up from a hearty, korean food induced nap, and am ACTUALLY not tired. refreshed. optimistic about the fierce world we live in. did my history reading. saw bits of high fidelity. sort of. oh this cyclic and mismatching life!
speaking of which - this may make you suddenly wake up and say "hold on, why isn't my life like that anymore?! doh". sigh, whatever. probably not because that would be ridiculous. i think every statement i make here is like at least 40% bullshite yo. incidentally i'm convinced i've lost my control of the english language or just english, or that i am having too much trouble speaking, and for that reason i have picked up that diihrty habit of reading again. go figure. this afternoon i polished off (i could've used another verb, yes) "an invisible sign of my own" in record time. (i have no clue whether that link will work.) it made me kind of nervous to be reading again. and yeah, contemporary literature always makes me rush a little bit. the pace. otherwise dinner yes. mmm mm good. conversation with manoj about this school and this program. no exit indeed. very nervous these days about people who ask me for college advice because i am so obviously not one who made good choices. or one who could be happy with any choice. potato farming and fruit picking, personal shopping, haircutting, waitressing, what am i missing here? opportunity cost of course is what everyone here believes in. friedrich list would say we are ourselves investments. but we are also the return. when the transformation occurs will we be there to see it kind of thing. at the very least i'm thinking unsleepily right now. it all just comes back to me in the end.
doop doop doop